I'm just not feeling like myself lately. This has been going on since last week. I haven't exercised since Friday last week and it doesn't look like I'm going to be doing it today either.
I have been busting my butt trying to find a teaching position, a subbing position, even a teachers/classroom assistant position...NOTHING! I'm sending resumes, now, out to counties that are far enough away that I would have to live away from my husband to take the job. I have $100k in student loan debt.
So here I sit with this education, with this tremendous debt, and I feel like that War song..."What is it good for? Absolutely nothing!"
In the meantime I've slowly slipped into this funk and I'm just not happy. I feel like doing nothing because all I want is to have some purpose for my life and a career would do just that.
So I'm going to pop a movie in and just veg out. If the motivation comes from somewhere I'll ride my bike today, but I don't see that happening. I'm fighting the urge as it is to just not go back to bed. I hate this economy and the fact that I graduated and was thrown out into it without a lifeline.
Sorry about the negative post, but its just true, honest-to-God feelings right now. I know I'll pull out of this, and for God's sake I don't deserve any pity because MANY people have it far worse than me. Kudos to Sailor Taylor for keeping on trucking, because I might have just shut down by now..You keep going girl! You're almost there!
And as for me I'll see you on the other side of the rainbow when I pull out of this silly stupor.
Frustrated,
Future Sailor, GM Ringle
2 comments:
Oh, wow! And I was just about to post a comment anyway and then I saw my shout out. Thank you, Lady:)
Now, I will say this: Although out situations may be f*cked, you HAVE GOT to look at the bright side. And there is always a bright side no matter what. Find what you look forward to the most and have that push you and guide you. In your darkest hours the Light is on it's way. It sounds cliche, but this has gotten me through all my troubles. I will write a blog on this soon. But think about it. Right before success comes failure. It's like Battle Stations in boot camp. Right before you graduate comes your ultimate test that will either make or break you.
Do not fail your test.
~Sailor Taylor
Thats right..This is like Battle Stations. You know..I absolutely love reading your blog and I think that you should be so proud of yourself and your strength. I really hope that your life leads you to share that with others in more ways than just in this blog. You're goin' places, girl! Thanks for the pick-me-up. I'm feeling a lot better today!
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